Testing MS word integration

So never tried blogging option from msword because it seemed too much of a hassle. I am doing this because I am in mood for procrastination. Let's see how well this turns out. If this works then I might blog a little bit more frequently. But the point of blogging is not that useful. To put your private thoughts for everyone else to read doesn't seem like a good idea. So you automatically censure yourself and express only those ideas that might be acceptable for others to read. What then is the point of blogging again? At best, it serves as a place for practicing your writing.

Oh, it works. Now let's see writing in the same post and publishing it leads to a new post or editing of the previous post.

Editing of the first post; huh. This is actually a useful application.

 

Habits

Have to put myself in the habit of expressing my thoughts whenever I finish reading a new book or even a new chapter of a book. All those fresh thoughts just seem to disseminate in just one day. In is anything ever new by crutchfield, the author talks about how even an observer plays a role in determining what we would call an emergent versus non emergent system. The newness that we are ascribing to a system is a human construction, and maybe nothing is ever new. But an emergent system is and can be more than sum of its parts, and be considered new in that sense. This idea of emergence is most easily applicable to the theory of evolution, where people still do not clearly understand how new biological life forms emerge out of old ones. There are selectionists, structuralists, and historicits who argue about how selection pressures play a role. Selectionists use the familiar argument that selection pressures are all about adopting to the environment. Historicists argue that there is an inherent randomness in genotype and in phenotype and this randomness can confer survival advantage in future but never at present. And structuralists argue that there are kind of platonic structures that determine optimum morphological conditions that are possible in a given environment and it is these structures that govern the output from evolutionary processes.

wasting time

18294 days. Days theoretically left for me to live. And on occasion I still find myself wasting time. Life is so precious and yet I cannot help myself. I need to change my environment even more in order to create a kind of life that I would find valuable.

But the problem then goes back what does it mean for life to be valuable, a fulfilled life. It cannot be just about being happy. That seems too ridiculous. Long term happy? What difference does it make? If I were to live a short life with happiness versus a long life with sadness and some happiness then I would have experienced same amount of happiness. Is sadness a necessity? I am not sure. Sometimes this sadness can be too overwhelming. To get some genuine happiness for this sadness doesn't seem to be worth it.

It's pathetic that these musings are coming from someone who in the big picture is a fairly lucky person and well off. There are people who don't even know that when they wake up tomorrow will they get a chance to eat something. I cannot waste my time like this.

Source of suffering

The source of all the suffering is desire. But once you kill your desires, what do you have left. Maybe a little bit of peace. Not all desires are equal. Some are more meaningful than others. Although all of them do cause suffering.

Radiolab sleep

Why do we dream? Apparently our brains labels certain problems as being hard by virtue of attaching certain emotions to them and then decides to work on it during dreams. It tries to solve problems by free associating the concepts and if there are any solutions to the problems in our past. I wonder if the sense of consciousness that exists during that moment is the same as one we having while awake. Is it a different kind of consciousness?

The function of sleep is to break connections that we have made while we were awake so that we remember better. This is possible because during sleep, a current of electrical activity begins from the back of the brain and washes over all of neurons during sleep. It starts pruning various connections just like a gardener prunes the lawn. The result is that even though there were lots of activities being represented in our brain for the previous day, pruning this information lowers the volume on all the activities and makes them more bearable. There was information on what you ate, where you were driving, what you were trying to learn etc. By reducing information on all of these activities, only activities that were most important to you; activities with emotional connotation get labeled as important, will stand out. Thus, information that you were trying to learn will stand out more.

Radiolab memory

Memory is not like a cubboard. It is malleable. In fact, every time we retrieve a memory, we reconstruct it. So memories that are rarely remembered are the ones that are most accurate. The function of consciousness is partly not just to order information, but to reconstruct it while it is being retrieved.

Making it a homepage

Let's see if there is an increase in how many posts I make if the blog is in front of me as a constant reminder. Hopefully it should go up

How useful GRE really is?

As I am setting up for another round of practice tests for GRE, I am really doubtful about how useful all this time investment is going to be after I have been admitted into a graduate school. I could have been using all this time to read up on various books on cognitive science but something like GRE is deemed more important than how much knowledge one has of a particular subject that is going to be part of his/her thesis in graduate school. If GRE is all about analyzing how flexible and adaptable graduate students can be in different challenges, then one might as well give IQ tests rather than studying up for GRE. At least IQ tests will be more fun and useful to prepare for.

Something out of nothing

It drives me crazy this idea about how everything came to be. I don't think it is possible for human mind to comprehend how everything came to be, but conceptually there is something highly illogical about the state of affairs of the universe. I mean, how can something come out of nothing. I am agnostic when it comes to religion, but even if one were to believe in some sort of creator, how exactly did the creator came to be? The creator has always been there, that doesn't make any kind of sense. Science is not of much help when it comes to this idea either? Even if there are ten or eleven dimensions and this universe came out dimension of another universe, how did that universe, or the universe at the highest level came to be? And this are not pointless musings like human suffering, morality, role of government, global warming and all that stuff, because these are all things that are of a concern for beings that are going to live for such a short period. The possibility of end and of death is such a big source of these concepts and conflicts in the first place. Plus, most people don't think about the big picture. Something is not right. Something doesn't make sense.

Using a laptop

It feels strange to be using a laptop keyboard for typing. The spaces on the keyboard are not consistent with the traditional desktop keyboard, thus feeling a little strange and alien. But I am highly impressed with how much pragmatic validity there seems to be in support of Mohr's law. In just a span of 2 years, my laptop can match in cpu and gpu power what my desktop can do. What's more, all this technology is present in such a compact space,as opposed to my massive hulk of a machine whose fan sounds drive me crazy if I engage in GPU intensive task for a long time. My new laptop has provided me with the opportunity to express my thoughts and ideas through the comfort of my bed, so I am planning to make my blogs much more common. Plus, its fun to read one's own thoughts expressed out in a coherent way as opposed to keeping everything in the head, jumbling up all types of ideas.

How fragile human life is

Marx on historical materialism

The idea of communism has been greatly understated and defamed by our popular culture. Only by understanding Marx's notion of historical materialism can one have a grasp of when the communist revolution is supposed to take place. Marx talks about capitalist system and how it is built into the system spending money on R&D to make the means of production more and more productive. And a time is going to come when because of all this research and improvement, when supply is going to get ahead of demand. But at this time, there is going to be an imbalance of spending power as the majority of people are simply not going to have money to buy stuff. It is then when the communist revolution is supposed to take place in the form of labor unions coming together. The problem of supply and demand still hasn't been met in the modern world. Thus, any nation trying to become communist is simply acting in futile. It is going to fail.

Ferdinand and Inquisition

History of Inquisition is really terrible and it goes on to show how the ugly aspects of human nature can show up at any point in time if the circumstances permit for it. Ferdinand wanted control of not only political power but religious power as well. It was by attaining total control of mind and body he thought he would be able to control the spanish empire, and it was a super power at one point in time. He created the Inquisition to find and destroy the heretics. And Inquisition operated on roman rules where testimony obtained through torture was more reliable one. They picked up Jews from small villages and even if they had slightly different way of behaving from the norm they were tortured until they said they were indeed not christian, perhaps only to stop them from torturing, but this resulted in public burning. This mindset of total submission also effected Latin America that at one point in time were part of the Spanish empire. It was good fit for some parts of the Latin Americas such as the Aztec Empire, which itself was built on Mayan empire, public sacrifices were a common aspect of this civilization. Another idea that was entertained in the lecture is the myth that if you have democratic values in one country the neighboring nations are also going to adopt such viewpoints. How many latin american nations can we name today that are truly democratic. Not many.

Ottoman Empire and Mustafa Kemal

This specific portion of history I am least familiar with, but the calibar and contribution of Mustafa Kemal (Kemal Ataturk) cannot be denied and is worth learning about. The Otttoman Empire was glories during the middle ages but like any other grand empire, it declined as well and by the 20th century it was a shell of its former self. But a man by the name of Mustafa Kemal really turned the Ottoman Empire around. European powers tried to defeat this Empire but they were unsuccessful. Kemal was able to rewrite the treaty agreement with them and the nation of Turkey was given independence. While he was in power he also took efforts to secularize the nation such as forcing the women not to cover their faces and dress like westerns. In just one decade he was able to turn around the face of Turkey and because of his efforts, Turkey is one of the most stable and modernized nation in the middle east. And Mustafa is still recognized for what he was able to accomplish as he is revered as the father of the nation today.

Rise of Islam

It's fascinating to read about the Iranian empire when it was governed by religion other than Islam. The empire that stood most ferociously against the Roman empire was the one that was governed by religion of prophet Zarathustra, who taught in believing in Aruha Mazda, the one true God. In this doctrine, the world was clearly divided into Good and evil, and choosing between these two meant how your soul is going to be judged during the judgment day. Still, no one would have thought that between the roman empire and the Iranian empire, the dominant doctrine would be something that is once again, different from these two. It was the doctrine of Islam, taught by prophet Muhammad during the 7th century. This religion gained a lot of ground very quickly partially because it was able to bring together tribes that were initially in war against each other. One fascinating aspect of Islam is that there is no distinction made between religion and state, for they are both supposed to be governed by god. After all, in Islam, there is no god but god. Also, Islam saw itself as being the next step from Christianity in that Muhammad was the next and last prophet to come from the line of Moses and Jesus. Soon the Byzantine empire would go and conquer even Constantinople, which is konwn as Istanbul today.

Constantine and christianity

I don't really buy into Prof. Rufus Fears thesis that throughout history, the defining moments are the ones that are created by decisions of single individuals but in the case of Constantine, this really appears to be the case. There were many cult religions like Christianity that were about saving one's soul and praying to one god. In fact, the story of Dionysus, the son of Zeus, is eerily similar to that of Jesus. Dionysus was son of Zeus and born of a mortal mother. He was killed but he resurrected. And his followers consumed his blood in the form of wine in order to be saved. Christians in particular began to be prosecuted in the 1st and 2nd century by the roman empire because this religion proposed freedom of conscience. It was because under Christianity, one only prayed to one god and serving the roman gods was prohibited. As the roman empire was facing problems in the middle east and with the Germanic tribes, Christians served as perfect scapegoats. It was because they were not obeying the roman gods that we are losing all these wars, they said. While this religion was almost extinct, the arrival of Constantine changed all that. During one crucial battle, Constantine had a vision of Christ and that he had been chosen to spread Christianity. He was able to surprisingly defeat his opponent and was inspired by the vision he had. Perhaps he had some political motivations as well for selecting Christianity as a state religion. For Romans, all these different gods led to the same divine path, but for Christians, there was only one right path. And by creating the capital Constantine of the roman empire and making himself head of the church, Constantine had become another apostle of the god. He had become a religious figure as well as a political and military figure. As soon as Christianity became the dominant religion, orthodoxy came in full force and if you were not practicing Christianity the right way, you were sinning. Christianity went from being persecuted to the persecutors.

The Romans would never had imagined that 1000 years later, their greatest contribution to the future societies was not their aqueducts or their laws, but two religions, Christianity and Islam. Perhaps our contribution for the societies 1000 years later would not be our love for democracy or freedom but our worshiping of the idol known as Ronald McDonald whose shrines we had built all over the world.

Fall of roman empire

The roman empire fell because of two main reasons, its incapability to deal with the problem of middle east and with the Germanic tribes. As rome had become bigger and badder, many others wanted to emulate it, but deem down all wished for its downfall. For there was nothing to admire about its empire. And even the citizens of the roman empire were not nationalistic any more. After the great rulers had left, the bureaucracy had become more bloated and corrupt. Rulers like Augustus determined that the problem of the middle east (the Iranian empire) and that of the Germanic tribes is best dealt with by limiting our empire. And even though this was a free market economy, the hostilities between the superpowers kept rising and eventually it came to a boiling point. War erupted and the superpowers went to war. The roman empire eventually won many of the middle eastern territories but it had expanded itself too much. And over the century or two, the Iranian empire politically came in the hands of new people, who felt that it was in the will of God that they had risen to power, and that they are now going to fight against the roman empire. And they did, and it was this new empire that had been plagued by various diseases and loss of nationalistic spirit and bloated bureaucracy that lost against the Iranians.

Rome and the middle east

The relationship between the roman empire and the middle east is intriguing because of two reasons; first, it were the Jews that were creating problems for the dominant political power of its day in the middle east, and secondly that the way Rome dealt with these particular problems was fairly secular. The region of Judea can be taken as an example. This was an area with strategic importance, because grain from Egypt shipped through here and into the roman empire; and grain was like oil for the roman empire. But Judea was highly multi ethnic, and it was a pain trying to solve these multi ethic disputes. The way Augustus approached this problem was by having governors who would enforce Jewish laws but also try to solve local disputes as locally as possible. Rome made lots of adjustments in trying to cope with what satisfied and did not satisfy ethnic groups of Judea. Jerusalem for example, was not made into a capital because it was sacred for Jewish people. The roman coins distributed in Judea did not had the face of the king because it would have violated the ten commandments for Jews. The taxes paid by Jews went to the Jerusalem temple rather than to the treasury of Rome. Still, there were problems. Passover was one of the holy days when even the most supportive Jew of Roman empire dreamt of having Israeli nation. There was also a group called Zealots, who committed terrorist acts in order to entice the entire Jewish community revolt against the Romans. The story about Jesus and how he was dealt by the Roman empire is also interesting. Sanhedrin, a group that was made up of 71 leading Jewish leaders, demanded death of Jesus because he had committed a sin, but Pontius Pilate told them that he had not committed any sort of crime under Jewish law. Ultimately he caved in partially because it was a local matter and partially because Tiberius, the successor to Augustus, was paranoid and wanted to suppress any signs of revolt in his kingdom. If pilate had gone against the Sanhedrin, then a revolt might have erupted.

So the relationship between Rome and middle east was certainly shaky. And this relationship became worse as newer dictators that emerged on the scene were not as witty and sharp as their predecessors and tried to rule middle east by dominating them rather than trying to compromise with them. This was also the time that christianity was coming into existence and the timing was not that good.

Augustus and Julius Caesar

Caesar and his adopted sun, Augustus, were the two men that carried the republican empire to being most prosperous and peaceful in history. Edward Gibbons, a historian from 1700's, even called the 1st and 2nd century AD in republican empire as being the most peaceful time in human history. It's interesting that when Rome was a republic, so many wars were fought but when it became an empirical empire, there was much prosperity and peace in the kingdom. There were opportunities for those who were at the lower class to buy their freedom and by investing properly, even becoming millionaires. And their sons could then even become senators if they wished. This was an age of creativity as men like Galen contributed much to biology and Ptolemy to geography. Rome contributed a lot to art and architecture as well. There were philanthropists who contributed to empire by building gymnasiums and schools for their communities. People could still be politically active at the local empire, though the major political decisions were still made by King. And these leaders demonstrated moderation when after losing a few battles, decided that it would not be worth conquering the Germanic tribes and expanding there. Similar moderation was demonstrated when the Empire did not expand beyond Sudan in African continent. Romans had their gods, but they were still a pluralist society. Citizens were allowed to worship any other god if they so choose. The empire understood that although the citizens don't have much political freedom, if they can grab on to illusions of being free, they won't complain much. Plus, this was a prosperous time after all. It was easy to not to miss any of the political liberties. A culture of multiculturalism and creativity isn't something that is unique to American democracy after all; such conditions are also possible under an Empire.

Rise of roman republic

Rome was another instance of history where people could not have guessed that this was going to be the birthplace of new superpower of the world, but it did. Rome was a true republic as it had a democratic branch, executive branch, and an aristocratic branch. When in war no one could have guessed that this was a republic, for the executive branch acted like monarchy, but the aristocratic branch had the power of the purse. Romans were democratic, but they were very war like. There were very few moments of time were Rome was not in war. Rome's army was made up of citizens and there was a very strong nationalistic spirit among them. But as Rome grew and continued to expand its empire, the constitution that was created for a small nation state began to show its weaknesses. The situation in politics became the same as it is in the U.S. now. Senators relied on donations made by merchants for political campaigns, and in return were requested to pass laws in favor of these companies. Citizens were better off then they were before, but the gulf between normal citizens and rich were getting wider and wider. They could not maintain an army of voluntary Roman citizens because the nationalistic spirit had worn off. The Romans had reached a critical period where they had to decide whether they are willing to give up being an empire and return to their old ways in order to bear the responsibility of being a republican nation or whether they are going to get a monarch to do all the political heavy lifting for them and in return, lose the ability to have any say in the political affairs. Roman political system at this point in time was frighteningly similar to that of U.S.